Pledging has been done for a while now.  I am glad I quit.  My grades were as bad as they have ever been.  I have never failed any classes and I was failing every single one.  I was getting bitched at for things I didnt do.  It wasnt worth my time and I am better for quiting when I did.  I know everyone thinks I quit because of Christine and that is wrong.  For anyone who thinks that you can all just die.

Well after I quit plegding I went to Christines house and met her parents.  I have been on a farm before but this one was different than my great aunts farm.  I guess It is because I was acually being used on a regular basis.  Well This weekend I might be going home and I might be taking Christine with me.  Well I have to go and get my grades back up.  bye.

Well pledging started last night.  Yeah that was an experience.  I wonder if I can even make it through.  One thing keeps me going.  It might be stupid but it seems to work.  I just keep thinking about giving a hug to Christine.  Yeah I know it sounds gay but it works.  Well I am tired and cant talk but other than that I miss her.  I hope things work out with her, at least for a while.  I dont want to rush things and ruin it like I have before.  That might not be possible though.

Well I have to try to keep my grades up so I have to learn something.

P.S.  I am still excited about pledging even though I know it is just going to get tougher.

Hey everyone that reads this, I am doing great.  I am as happy as I have ever been.  I think everything should be good.  I met a really great girl and I think she feels the same for me...  Now i have someone to bid on me at the male auction for wrestling.  I am finally catching back up in my shop class and hopefully in my other classes I am doing as well.

Well I have to try to learn something now so I will type later.  bye.

well i have had a pretty good week so far.  I met some new people and i say the brothers grim which was pretty good.  It wasnt what i expected but it was still good.  Most everything is good right now.  I am a litttle behind in my shop though.  It annoys me but that is my own fault.  I need to start putting effort into going to shop more.  I am still pretty soar from football but I will live.  Well I have to go to class now.  I have to play with my wood .

well i am here sitting at my computer, soar as hell from football, and wondering why do I feel so blah.  Well I guess it is a combination of the pain in my jaw and the thought of what might be next for me and what to do about woodworking.  Well i realized who cares what happens next and what could be.  I have to live right now and not worry about the future.  Fuck everyone who is pissed at me or is trying to bring me down,  I am on my own like i have been most of my life.

Well tomorrow is another day at the shop and I need to get a ton of shit done.  I hope things will go my way tomorrow but if not o well.  Well i have to get some sleep and do some studing, yes studing for a class.  later.